Sunday, August 3, 2008

...nOt AnOtHeR sTaTiStIc...

throughout my travels through life i get to meet some pretty interesting people. for some reason i keep running into some very close-minded individuals. they have their preconceived notions about the city and about public education in the city and how horrible of a place to live the city must be because of all the things they hear about crime and etc. i am aware that everyone is entitled to their own opinion however i have a very difficult time accepting their close minded views. i hear people saying things like "kids in the city have no future", "kids in the city are just bad and don't want to learn" and many other very discouraging comments pertaining to the city schools. i always find myself having to try to educate people with this mindset when i run into them. i went to city schools throughout all of my educational history. i went on to graduate in the top 10% of my graduating class, i earned a bachelors degree and eventually earned a masters degree all with the city school quality education as my foundation that led me to the goals that i have accomplished. people always seem to be facinated when i tell them that i went to city person even said "i figured you had to have gone to a good school, since you are so smart". in those instances i remind people that i did go to a good school despite their preconceived views city schools. when will people learn to be more open minded? when will they learn that every person who goes to a city school does not turn out to be a failure...when will they learn to move past the bad statistics and learn that accept that city schools do not just breed idiots and not every kid will turn out to be just another negative statistic...

Sunday, June 29, 2008


we all wear masks, it’s our shield
a form of protection
but what do we do when we get lost in the mask
confused about our own identity
i’m at a point in my life where i feel
there is a constant struggle between
my outer mask and my inner self
every…one always looks for me to
be a pillar of strength.
i’m glad that i can be strong for others
but i struggle when i can’t be that for myself.
sometimes i get so lost in being strong
that i forget its okay to be vulnerable.
i’m getting ready to begin my career as a therapist
i've been preparing for this for six years and i’m
so nervous and a little scared but i’m struggling
with allowing myself to be vulnerable
i’m struggling with not being strong….

Friday, June 6, 2008


I had to take a break from blogging I was becoming overwhelmed with life and felt as if I was being consumed by a black hole. Everything I wrote I hated...I was beginning to get discouraged. I contemplated giving up writing...but I couldn't stay away, it's like a mosquito bite that won't stop itching. That drive, that desire to create, to try to make sense of these jumbled words that cloud my head. There's a huge internal struggle....and somehow I'm everything and nothing; organized and chaotic; drained and energized; calm and hostile; I am

I am

well...I am back.

Friday, January 25, 2008

...mOdErN dAy GlAdIaToR...

vigorously fighting for a cause
feels like
one versus thousands
battling an army
a crow plunging into the fire
powerful & persistent
a phoenix soaring up from the water
staring into the face of death for…


protecting those you serve
children. women. men.

YOU struggle daily, to preserve OUR freedom
how can we ever express our….

. . . tHaNk YoU!

Saturday, January 19, 2008


hard at work
ever so glamorous
worn out & broke - down


relentlessly on the beat
a street~worker
do the streets work her
how did she get to this place
the false thread of appeal

…and then comes the remedy
a substance to change her mood
with a new found sense of comfort
…she can go on
hard at work and still


Wednesday, January 16, 2008

...pRoGrEsSiVe DiNnEr BlOg CaRnIvAL...

You Are Invited To The Blogosphere's Only Progressive Dinner Carnival

Have you ever been to a progressive dinner? You start out at one house or restaurant to have hors d'oeuvres and cocktails, then move on to a different one for appetizers, and continue moving from place to place all the way through dessert.

That's the idea behind the new Progressive Dinner Blog Carnival...

Soup To Nuts is ONE BLOG CARNIVAL presented in five "courses", each with a different host.

Entries are being accepted NOW.
Dinner will be served on Wednesday, January 30th

{You can submit one post, per blog, on any subject - please do not use any post more than once}

You can participate in 1, 2, 3, 4 or 5 courses

The Hors d'oeuvres & Cocktails course...
will be served here, at Fear and Loathing - The Gonzo Papers.
Email your entry for the hors d'oeuvres & cocktails course
to me {subject line Progressive Dinner} at:

The Appetizer course...
will be served at Change Therapy.
Email your entry for the appetizer course
to Isabella {subject line - Progressive Dinner} at:

The First Course...
will be served at Fallen Words
Email your entry for the first course
to Sara {subject line - Progressive Dinner} at:

The Main Course...
will be served at Anja Merret - Chatting To My Generation.
Email your entry for the main course
to Anja {subject line - Progressive Dinner} at:

The Dessert Course...
will be served at Fiction Scribe.
Email your entry for the dessert course
to Jaime {subject line - Progressive Dinner} at:

Your entry should include...

---(-)-> Your name as you want it to appear
---(-)-> The name(s) of your blog(s)
---(-)-> The corresponding URL(s)
---(-)-> The title of your post(s)
---(-)-> The corresponding URL(s)

The Rules are simple...

1. Only English language posts will be accepted.
2. No posts with titles that include profanity or pictures of a sexual nature.

This is a one-of-a-kind blog carnival. The hosts would appreciate your help to promote the event. Let us know if you publish a post promoting the progressive dinner, your effort will be recognized. To make things as easy as possible for all involved, I ask the post more or less follow the structure of this one.

Monday, January 14, 2008


unwilliningness 2 admit
the wrongs commited
looking for acceptance
in any way
even when its wrong
using my body as leverage
all the while only fooling myself
i seek the day that i accept me 4 me
3 tries
2 tries
last try &… FAILURE
im alone an now tainted
because of what i let U do 2 me
…still seeking acceptance
yet all i find is

Saturday, January 5, 2008

...aPoLoGy NoT aCcEpTeD...

well as life would have it
what goes up...must come down
similar to gravity
my level of magnificent peacefulness
has begun the all to familiar
downward spiral...
ive decided i am
sick sick sick
of everyones shit
so as my excitement to begin 2008
plummets further & further, closer & closer
to my complete & utter annoyance with
just about everyone that surrounds me
in particular the collective group of idiots that i
unfortunately have to call "co-workers"
i have decided that i am no longer accepting
these mediocre apologies that people throw at me
when they have wronged me....
damn u & ur crappy ass apology
go play in some new york city traffic!
Apology NOT Accepted!

...aPoLoGiZe, OnErEpUbLiC...

[Verse 1]
I'm holdin' on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground.
And I'm hearin' what you say,
But I just can't make a sound.
You tell me that you need me,
Then you go and cut me down...
But wait...
You tell me that you're sorry,
Didn't think I'd turn around...
And say...

That it's too late to apologize.
It's too late...
I said it's too late to apologize.
It's too late.

[Verse 2]
I'd take another chance,
Take a fall, take a shot for you.
I need you like a heart needs a beat,
But it's nothin' new.
I loved you with a fire red,
Now it's turnin' blue...
And you say...
Sorry, like an angel
Heaven let me think was you...
But I'm afraid...

It's too late to apologize.
It's too late.
I said it's too late to apologize.
It's too late.


It's too late to apologize.
It's too late.
I said it's too late to apologize.
It's too late.

It's too late to apologize. YEAH!
I said it's too late to apologize. YEAH!
I'm holdin' on your rope,
got me ten feet off the ground.

Friday, January 4, 2008

...sTaRt Of A nEw YeAr...

well 2008 def got off
to a lil bit of a rocky start
but i still have high hopes
in the past couple of days
things have turned out to
be nothin but gorgeous
....well, gorgeous...
besides the horrible
january weather that we get
here in the great state
of new york things are slowly startin to
get in order
& make sense in my life
im just a few months shy of graduating
with my masters in counseling & life at this point is
lookin gorgeous....
just like the beautiful models in my picture
lookin gorgeous...